talk it out

so, i'm not sure if it's a side effect of my job, but i'm actually a big proponent of talking things out. i believe in telling people how you feel and sharing as a way of working through things. and while this is typically a very good method, the problem is that it only works when the other person is willing to talk things out, as well. and, the truth is, there aren't a lot of people who are willing to do so. so that typically leaves me feeling needy or overly-emotional, when really i just hate childish, passive-aggressive bull shit.

last night, a friend of mine texted to offer me company and chocolate cake. and although i was not in a good place to have anyone see me, the fact that i knew someone was there was extremely comforting. and today i got to talk to two good friends of mine, and both are always good at helping me feel more grounded. one of them knows a lot of people in my life, and she's pretty observant to some of the nonsense that some of those people are capable of. she helps remind me that i'm not crazy (and when needed, she puts me in my place...which i always hate at the time). my other friend is just a good person to talk to because he lives in such a different world than i do that it's always nice to get his perspective. besides, he always knows how to make me smile.

so, combining both of those thoughts leads me to my clarity of today: there are people in my life who are good people, and those people are worth talking it out with (even if it's hard) and not running away from. let's hope when put into practice, that clarity stays clear.